Jutta Speidel reads from her novel AMARYLLIS (What if…)

You know the feeling, don't you? You've already lived a good stretch of life - some things worked out well, others less so - and every now and then you catch yourself thinking: what if…? What if my name weren't Jutta? What if I'd never become an actress?

What if I hadn't married that man, had lived completely different loves, maybe never had children? What if I'd lived in an entirely different country - and still been ME? That's exactly where I find myself. I am Jutta, and I am Valerie. Her biography is mine too. At least - it could be, and yet…!

With boldness, warmth, depth and great intensity, Jutta Speidel traces the life of the clown Valerie between 1954 and 2024. It is a life full of detours, shaped by great love, hope, tragedy, sacrifice, betrayal and reconciliation.

AMARYLLIS is a reading without resignation - carrying the message that one should stay open to new paths throughout life. It radiates unconventional thinking, generosity, trust and forgiveness.